Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Almost made it...

Haven't posted lately... no internet at my parents will do that.

Just got into Santa Barbara last night with Chris. We sat under the stars listening to music and I just started thinking. About how much shit I had to go through to be at this point, back where I am suppose to be. This has been the goal that has kept me focused on beating this bullshit and getting this over with...AGAIN.

I get so angry still that all of this happened...again...I honestly think that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes the reason seems a bit blurry. Maybe it will make more sense later on...

I'm being told how well I am doing, how strong I am...idk just gets old. I am ready to be my independent self again, get back into the swing of things, get the real me out there. I was in so much pain before I feel like the real me had been stifled, maybe now my life can be how I really want it to be.

School starts the 12th for me. Still have one more adjustment for my leg, hopefully it will help my walking to be more normal. The bone scan showed a few dark spots, but the xray showed it was not anything worrisome. I did get an MRI as well and am waiting to hear the results, not expecting anything wrong.

Life is getting back to normal :)

2 comments:

  1. I have been thinking about you each and everyday. Hang in there survivor friend

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